Why does Church Exist?

woke up this morning feeling a little crappy. Nothing out of the ordinary, just a typical Sunday Morning for me. I try to shake the feelings by working out before 8am and reading my bible while drinking on some orange juice.

Then I remembered that I feel better when I write so here I am blogging. I normally journal using 'Word' so this is all new to me. Not sure if anyone will be able to read what I'm putting down.

Some may ask, 'Why do I feel so crappy on Sunday mornings'? You think it would be the trick of the enemy, but I refuse to give the devil that much credit.

I have a real issue with God and the cards I have been dealt and it is hard for me to fake the funk.

Lets establish some points up front, I don't hate God because I'm not a hater. I just have an issue that requires some real heart to heart dealing with. I need a change of heart about my life and where I am positioned. TD Jakes talks about 'repositioning yourself' and I think I'm repositioning on a backward slop instead of forward. I constantly ask myself is this the way life goes or am I doing something wrong.

I feel as though God has turned his back on me and going to church right now and being around people that I don't care to see, just does not make these feelings go away. The question always come up. What is the point of church, what can be said to me that I have not already heard?

I'm very intuned to what I'm searching for; however, I don't know what avenue to take to get there. So I guess, I'm not disappointed in God, just the church and their approach to preach me happy (happy> a temporary emotion that changes with circumstance) instead of clear direction and how to stay emotionally healthy. Can the church teach this or does it come from spending time with God doing your personal quiet time? The latter has always worked for me and church was just a place to have fun, UNLESS you are connected with people who understands the meaning of the term SHEPARD & SHEEP.

So I ask the question again. What is the purpose of the church? Corporate worship? Is it true worship that you get?

More often than not the church has no clue of things that really goes on with people and you leave feeling empty as before, so it has to be much more to this picture. What's the bigger picture here?