Sometimes I sit and I'm not sure what I want to write about. Sometimes it comes easy and other times I really have to think about it. As I stated before, writting is theraputic and I enjoy every minute that I can sit here and flow. I started writing about the things that keeps me ticking and as I sit here fighting off the bugs writing gives me a feeling of water being poured of my face so relaxing and serene. To my understanding water is symbolic of the Holy Spirit and to that I say 'Awesome' because I've always felt this and now I know what it is. Thank you Jesus.
I like to give props to my Lord and Savior for bringing me to a place of peace with myself, because at one point in my life, I knew I was loosing it and right when I was about to break, he lifted me. Knowing that he would take a little time to be healed he remained patient with me. I thought he wasn't here with me and didn't care to be, but as I go through this journey in my quiet place, it's revealed to me that he never left. You were just watching me. Wow! is all I can say. I thank God that he didn't leave me to the wolves and if I would have stayed in Dallas, that's where I would have ended up. The willingness to stay in my car and my friends not caring what happens next because they thought my situation was a joke and I was trying to get over. I felt desparate and didn't have anywhere to turn. Home is always a safe haven but it could also be my trap. God quickly stood me up and had me contact a dear friend who helped me sort through some things and home bound I was.
Now I'm home! what's been going on for me here. I work for Edward Jones as a Educational Specialist for business retirement plans. I'm currently studying for my Securities Licensing. My social life hasn't kicked off (Yet)but I trust that will be next. Career is first. I'm emotionally healthy and that is the most important part of my Journey. I haven't found a church home and to be honest, I haven't had the desire or the energy to go to church. It doesn't make sense to me right now.
God knows about my situation and when the revelation comes, he will let me know.
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