A Child's Darkness

When a child feels like no one cares or understands them this can bring on a dark place in their lives. They create a world of an imaginary life style and even though they face reality of what ever they are going through, that child can't wait until it's dark because in the darkness is where their strength is.
I was that child and when I tell you I had an imagination there was no better writer than I. I use to make up my dreams before I went to sleep (meditating as a child and didn't know it) , so that when I would fall asleep I would enjoy myself to the fullest. I didn't just have fun, I tapped into every emotion and dealt with those issues. Issues I was having in real life but imagining some adult helping through it. Imaginary parents, ones that were aware of my existence. How awesome was that....hahaha.
I remember telling my cousin what I was going to dream about and she would say you have a good imagination and I would just smile.
Now I'm an adult and I no longer make up dreams. I have never been the person to blame someone else of my short comings, because to me after a certain level of knowledge of how people are, it is proven that no human being can make you are break you. You have to recognize the strength inside and move forward.
You see my imagination was my therapy. As a child did I know this, absolutely not, but one day, I allowed Jesus into my heart and he showed me where he was in the picture. Jesus was all in it and it wasn't until later he told me I was your Mother and Father. With this new found revelation, I never blamed anyone for my miss fortune, not even myself.
I may feel down at points, but I quickly remind myself what Jesus told me years ago. So to you adults that are holding to the past or on the blame game, find a place where you are the happiest and strive forward. Talk out you issues with someone. Sometimes we find that we don't need an answer from someone we just need an ear. So if you are not comfortable talking to a family member or friend, go catch the bus to work one day and talk to that stranger. I promise you will feel better and the devil loses.
A child's darkness is her/his strength.